Oct 4, 2017
oil on panel, 8"x8"
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I definitely found myself in a creative rut today.
My body is still trying to recover from the 6:00am bedtime from two nights ago. And due to that, I have been so behind on planning the remaining 12 paintings to finish this series out.
Guys, this painting series is definitely getting serious. And seriously interesting to plan for as we get closer and closer to the wedding date.
Maybe it's because I'm constantly in a fight with myself between feeling frustrated, excited, anxious, stressed and elated. It's difficult to really let my inner voice onto the canvas when some days I really don't know what to share.
But that I realized today in the bath: there is always something to share, especially when it comes to a topic that is not commonly shared among most people on a regular basis.
Wedding planning is hard, it's fun, it gives me pimples from anxiety, it's happy, it's sad (at times), it's frustrating, it's time-consuming. It opens up relationships and it also tears some apart. It builds a couple up and rips them apart all at once. And then, apparently, on the actual wedding day, it's all bliss.
You feel all of that in the however many months you're planning a wedding just for a few hours of absolute, lovely, beautiful bliss, then a lifetime of happiness? I guess that's why for centuries couples have done this over and over and over again.
I want to share this story with everyone, a story that doesn't get much attention, only around the bride/married women's community of secret sharers of what you're supposed to feel, how to tackle those feelings, and how to surmount those feelings and carry on with better feelings about getting married and your wedding day. Sure, it's all about perspective, but it's also about sharing.
A quote from The Art of Creative Thinking (a book I'm currently reading that I hiiiiighly recommend), "Power comes not from knowledge kept but from knowledge shared."
At this very moment, I want everyone to know that it is hard, it is fun, it gives me anxiety, it makes me happy, it makes me sad, it frustrates me, and that it sucks up all of my time from other things I'd rather be doing (like painting, working and just having a life). To be 100 right now, I can't wait for it to all be over. But man, did I learn so much in the process.
Over the next 12 days, I'm going to work my butt off to continue to attempt to show you all life behind the scenes, and to really know what goes into the big wedding day. It may be all glitz and glamour the day of, but sweat, tears, laughs, pimples and smiles went all into it to make it all so beautiful.
Because the beauty is in the details, and these details are grimy and real.